View the pictures from Thanksgiving here. Enjoy...
Happy Turkey Day to everyone. This will be a Tofurky day for me today since I don't eat turkey. Included will be one stuffed Tofurky, "gibblet" gravy, three "drumsticks", and Tofurky Jerky wishbone sticks.
Yeah, I won't miss out on any of the fun. I even attempted to bake two pies (Apple and Pumpkin). I'll let you know who goes to the hospital because of food poisoning after eating my pies.
I just saw The Emperor's Club with Jordan and Dave. I think that the movie kicked some major ass. They seemed to think that the movie was a bit long and boring. Then again, I loved The Remains of The Day and that was pretty boring for most people too.
Anyway, the movie just has this uplifting and motivating plot. After I walked, I was motivated to go feed the poor and such.
Well, I was on my way home. Just sitting at the light on the corner of 9th and Greer. This is about 30 seconds from where I live. All of a sudden, right before the light changes to green, some guy rear ends me. It doesn't look like there was any damage to my car, but I called Progressive anyway.
This sucks.
I'm not talking about coke here... Umm there is now snow on the ground. Winter is here and it is already frickin cold! Tonight it will get into the low 20's and tomorrow night will be in the low teens.
Time to move south. If it is going to be this cold, it should at least snow!
I just had another awesome conversation with a guy that I have been talking with for a little bit over a week. I now have a date for Friday!
He seems cute and honest, we shall see how this turns out in a few days. Let the countdown begin.
Dad is still in the hospital, but it looks like he might be getting out tomorrow. Let's cross our fingers.
I took this picture while walking to the MWG office. Isn't it just a bit too early for Christmas lights?
I have posted my pictures from the Cincinnati Youth Summit. You can find the album here. I still need to do some major red-eye reduction.
From fuali.com:
There are 10 types of people in this world, those who understand binary and those who don't
Kind of odd because of my bit shifting in CSC333
Is that title dramatic enough? My life feels like a soap opera sometimes. Right now I haven't slept in over 24 hours. I stayed up all night yesterday in order to complete my CSC333 project, but I am still not finished. I have to finish it by Thursday (will lose a letter grade!).
Let's just say that the test sucked...
Yet another parody of the Apple Switch campeign.
This evening, Elyse and I met in Clifton to see Bowling for Columbine. For some odd reason, she ended up getting lost and we missed the movie. I still want to see it sometime soon!
Anyway, we were talking about getting into the Christmas spirit and she said that I should decorate the house. For some reason, I haven't been in the holiday mood since mom and dad seperated. But the idea of getting a tree sounded somewhat interesting and she offered to let me borrow one of her fake, plastic trees. Umm, no nasty ass fake, plastic trees for me. It has been a family tradition to have a real tree every year. Elyse then pointed out that it is odd that I would kill a living tree and yet be so freindly to the environment in many other ways. That kind of hit me that having a real Christmas tree would be a waste of a living tree... Maybe I should reconsider.
I finally uploaded the pictures from Kyle's first birthday. Isn't he just the cutest thing...
Yesterday I went to Findlay Market with Chris and Elyse. We went into the Mediterranean Store and I found a HUGE can of stuffed grape leaves. I mean this can is massive. There are about 50 of the things in there and it only cost 5 dollars.
So, guess what I am having for dinner.... Well, I will be eating them for a LONG while...
Just think, two weeks until the Youth Summit!
I spend most of the day helping Jean pack boxes and get ready for the moving van which is coming tomorrow. Gosh, I am just ready to crawl into bed. It feels like 11:00pm, but it is really only about 7:00pm. I must be getting old! At least I don't have to move until May. But now I have to figure out how to rearrange the house because 3/4 of it is empty now!
Over the past 24 hours, I have been feeling an extremely deep sense of loneliness. It is not derived from the fact that there are not any people around me. Actually, there are many supportive and caring people around me right now. It is a loneliness and emptiness deep inside of my soul. I feel isolated even though there are many people around me.
Last night I cried myself to sleep because I had an intense desire to talk with my mother about my conversation with Jeremy. I knew what she would have told me, but I just wanted to hear her say it to me. To let me know that she cares about me. There was just something so special about talking with my mother. No matter what was going on in my life, she had the power to put my mind at ease. She could make me find value in myself and give me the strength to face the world. I know that the strength is inside of me because there are parts of her in me. I just want to hear her tell me that everything will be all right.
I feel like I am all alone in the world sometimes. That I will never have that close connection to someone. When I found out that she had died, I just wanted to crawl into bed with my nonexistent boyfriend and lay in his arms. I feel that a connection to someone like that would make this process easier.
It is also odd because I no one else is grieving with me. I cannot walk up to someone else and see how they feel or really talk about my mother. No one her really knew her. This makes the pressure to move on even stronger. Today marks the one month date of my mother's death. I am still not functioning on full power, but I feel that there is this expectation that I should be back to normal. My grief seems to make other people uncomfortable because they do not know how to deal with my feelings or even their own feeling about death. Isn't that just a bit unfair. For example, look at my school work. I do have the time to get my work done, but sometimes I just need to do other things. Sometimes spending time with Jordan and Deb is extremely important to me. I need to feel connected to some people. But at the same time, I am not really being productive and getting my work done. It is almost like a no win situation...
Well, since I have had almost no luck with gay men; maybe I should just consider switching to straight men. I could be their reason to *switch* sides.
Over the last year and a half, I have had pretty much horrible luck with guys. I invest a large amount of energy and feeling into the relationship. At thend end of two weeks or a month, I am told that we should just be friends or that he is too busy to date anyone or that he was never really interested in me in the first place. Come on, how lame is that one. A month isn't really enough time to get to know someone that well at all. Please, please just give me a chance here!
Anyone have any thoughts?